I thought that everything's well: that I've forgotten, or that if I haven't forgotten yet, that I will no longer feel pain. I was wrong... I was proven very wrong.

Though I've wished for this to happen, it came very unexpected. It came when I least thought it would and when it came, I was just shocked. My knees were trembling, my blood rushing, my mind was a bit disoriented. I was a mess and, upto now, I still feel like a big pile of emotional mess.

Now... it's all I can think of. And the pain I've tried so long and hard to put away has braced me back again and I don't know what to do.